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rank 1858
word count 33552
date submitted 07.01.2010
date updated 16.01.2010
genres: Biography, Harper True Life, Comedy...
classification: adult
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Filthy Tranny Whore - The transsexual users guide: Lavinia’s 2009 diary.

Lavinia Sonderburg-Beck

I love drugs, hanging out in bars, casual sex and fucking with people’s heads. I’m a transsexual, a disaster and this is my true story.

 

I love drugs, hanging out in bars, casual sex and fucking with people’s heads. I am transsexual and I am a complete bitch. My tits are fake. My hair is fake, my eyelashes are fake, my tan is fake, my fingernails are fake. Even my name is fake. Nothing about me is real. I don’t have a real name, a real job or even a real life. I dress like a hooker, have sex in the back seats of taxi cabs and the toilets at nightclubs. My best friends include a coke whore and a prostitute. I’m not interested in anything nice. I don’t give a shit about the environment, politics, art or religion. I simply don’t care. I want people to fuck me. Not like me. In 2009 my life started turning into a disaster area. I started keeping a diary as ‘therapy’ this is the result. I wanted it to be a love story. But it reads like a tragic comedy. I really need to do something other than take drugs, fuck strangers and hang out in bars. My life is falling apart. Read this and you’ll understand why. This is all from my diary. It’s all true.

 
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GravelRoads22 wrote 386 days ago

Hey, I used to live with a tranny whore named Morgan Baily. She does porn now. She used to go by Roxy Star. I really enjoy your writing. It is so encapsulating of tyranny whore culture, and it made me think of Roxy with each sentence I read. Thanks for letting me read it.

Famlavan wrote 682 days ago

Stunning philosophy on life!!!
I’m sure some physiatrist would love to work with you right up until they realised that they now needed a shrink! This is brilliant, being true to yourself through being false – bring it on!!!

Lavinia wrote 684 days ago

"It's a compliment. I think." Something like self improvement. And why not? We all what to improve in some way or the other; some sort of happening that makes us feel we aren't just pushing the same rock up the hill and watch it roll back down again. So, "a filthy tranny whore" may be a change for a change. It's nice to see that you even have a mission statement for it: someone buys the drinks; few clothes; venue for sex; and drugs (optional). I think that's pretty similar to the ol' sex-n-drugs-n-rock-n-roll of years gone by. Some things never change, eh? Then, of course, "there's nothing like a friend getting a new set of breasts to bring people together." That and football scores, I guess. Hell, not to mention transsexual lesbians. One thing after another, the mission statement just seems to get longer and longer. You have an interesting idea, here. Keep it up, you keep the reader moving along with your pace and constant transformations. I'll be back when I get time to read more. Shelved with pleasure.



Dear KW

Sorry to be tardy with my reply. In the last 148 days I bailed out of Authonomy - I got a book deal only to see it fall through, so now back at square one again. Reading your comment made me feel all warm and positive again. Thanks for taking the time, it's appreciated

Lavinia wrote 684 days ago

I must have read 15,000 words before i set it aside. This is the most hilarious shit, you can't make this stuff up. well I could, but who would want to. You're a pathetic fucking bitch, and you should definitely keep writing.



Dear John

I just love you. You totally rock. You made my day with this. X Lavinia

Vanessa Darnleigh wrote 684 days ago

Wow...it must be great to shove your finger up a stranger's ass...this is really great stuff...soooo in your face and intensely erotic just the way you like it...actually I'm a real liar but then you won't give a shit anyway so who cares? If I were you I'd try to shove it up your ass where it belongs! The irony is there are probably lots of poor bastards out there who would actually buy this shit so why not?
Good luck
Stewart

John C Hatch wrote 688 days ago

I must have read 15,000 words before i set it aside. This is the most hilarious shit, you can't make this stuff up. well I could, but who would want to. You're a pathetic fucking bitch, and you should definitely keep writing.

KW wrote 832 days ago

"It's a compliment. I think." Something like self improvement. And why not? We all what to improve in some way or the other; some sort of happening that makes us feel we aren't just pushing the same rock up the hill and watch it roll back down again. So, "a filthy tranny whore" may be a change for a change. It's nice to see that you even have a mission statement for it: someone buys the drinks; few clothes; venue for sex; and drugs (optional). I think that's pretty similar to the ol' sex-n-drugs-n-rock-n-roll of years gone by. Some things never change, eh? Then, of course, "there's nothing like a friend getting a new set of breasts to bring people together." That and football scores, I guess. Hell, not to mention transsexual lesbians. One thing after another, the mission statement just seems to get longer and longer. You have an interesting idea, here. Keep it up, you keep the reader moving along with your pace and constant transformations. I'll be back when I get time to read more. Shelved with pleasure.

Jesse Hargreave wrote 833 days ago

Backed January 17.

Jesse - Savant

http://www.authonomy.com/ViewBook.aspx?bookid=14062

Lichen Burn wrote 833 days ago

Hi Lavinia
I have looked at your book as you asked me to, and I find myself with a very mixed bag of reactions.

1. It is clear you can write well, articulately and with an appreciation of what a writer needs to draw a reader on. But you don't always show it. What I mean is that it was not until halfway through Section 4, the erotic scene with Neto, that you began to write like this.

2. You need to decide what the purpose of this book is - for the reader. Is it a diary written by someone in a difficult place? If so, then it needs, in my view, to show more of your deep feelings in it, and less of the attempt to shock. It should do this through the events and situations you experience, and your reactions to them. It should reveal the inner you as a person, your turmoils, your difficulties and the like. Alternatively, if it's a novel, intended to titillate your readership, then it probably needs a story to it: a beginning, middle, end, a few key conflicts, and some kind of resolution.

I think you are technically capable of writing it, but I feel you just need to decide which one you are writing. And then go for it, you'll probably do it very well.

It could of course be that I have a very old-fashioned view of things and I'm totally out of tune with modern trends, so you need to look at all the comments you have received from authonomists and decide for yourself what you are going to do and how to do it.

In any event, I wish you the best of luck - for your book and also for yourself.

Chris

Pat Black wrote 834 days ago

Hi there - I liked the drive in this, there is absolutely no messing around. Your themes and your lifestyle are up-front and clearly stated, and that commands a lot of respect. And it's shedding light on a world most people simply don't know about - and it deals with sex, which is eternally fascinating for humans (and maybe a few aliens too). Fantastic piece of work, eye-catching, daring and original. All the best to you

Pat Black
Snarl

Philip Gilliver wrote 835 days ago

OK, I promised myself that I wouldn't give in to spam. I stuck this on my watchlist and I was going to look at it later. I'm halfway through a chapter of one of my own books now and had just popped on to see if anybody else had written about it. But I was intrigued by the idea of this and it does make fascinating reading. It has brutal honesty and grit and I think that it has huge potential. WIll back it with pleasure.

Phiz (Projekta)

Sangay Glass wrote 837 days ago

Hum... it's a diary so why would I expect anything else? Dunno, I just did. I hoped to do a little mind travel into someone else's head, but felt at a distance. Like the "author" wants to show us the life but doesn't want us to feel it. Maybe it's because you haven't allowed yourself to feel it. You're just a reporter. It's kinda like a girlfriend saying, "Hey, check out my new implants! But don't touch cause I didn't even do that yet.."

Personally, I think if you're going to throw it all out there...throw it all out there. This includes emotion, and something that might seem tiresome like getting a nasty look form some old witch on the train and the the way it makes you feel deep inside, not only gives the reader a break from the abrasiveness of this story but help us gain insight and sympathy for the characters. Another example: A lot of junkies die on the street and a lot of people think, they deserve it. But take one junkie and do an in depth story about how he/she got there and we might see we share something on a human level. We were all someone's baby, got bullied,lost someone or something we loved. It's this small bond that will help your audience embrace your characters.

Instead of pushing us away from the start in the opening, I suggest you remove it and start in chapter two. All 1 says is "my life is F@cked so if you don't like it, F@ck off." My first impression was, "well I suppose this is going to be a $hit piece of work by a writer who doesn't give a $hit". But it's not, so why sell yourself short in order to shock people? It won't work to gain readership.

On a side note, you must have some long arms and fingers cause I can't see reaching round to the spot in that position. um... not that I've tried or anything. And I can't see a man not being hard up at the mere idea he was gonna get some. um... not that I had so much sex with one man in a day that he was dried up.

Anyway, I'm not saying clean up your act. Just saying blow a little life into your "characters" and they'll all cum together for one interesting book.

I'll back this for a little exposure because it could use more opinions. I hope you take it all in, sit on it awhile, and work on making the best of this story.

Sangay



Mascutt wrote 844 days ago

Hello Lavinia,

I ran across this quite by accident and read, captivated, for a long time. Your brutal honesty is what makes this an intriguing read and I could see it going far with the appropriate tweaking. From the point of commercialism and marketability, I will let you know you had me hooked until the sex scene - which I skimmed over. This is not because I am a prude or anything like that, but because the entire tone of your memoir changed and I suddenly felt I was reading porn. The reason I mention it is because most readers like to use their imaginations. You allow us to use our imaginations through most of your writing... then BAM, we don't get to use our imagination any more because you tell us every single detail in a blow-by-blow description. Tranny or otherwise, sex is the same for everyone - so we don't need the descriptions because we all know how it ends. It seems to me the subject should be tackled more from within your mind (like the rest of your book)... what you are feeling.. empty? Fulfilled? Routine?? In love? etc...

I hope this helps because your goal, as you work your way to the editor's desk, should be to edit this to as near perfection as possible so HC can see beyond any mistakes and discover the marketability of your work :)

I am certainly happy to back this for its extreme potential

David :)

david brett wrote 844 days ago

This may be too artful to be `real' , we may be looking at what in Japanese theatre is called an onnagata ( in which the female parts are played by men who live as women off stage as well as on stage.) But it hardly matters! Good frank fun and sarcastic observation with a deeper undertow, like swimming in a mill-race. There are some capital jokes. Just like life anywhere! Backed

hot lips wrote 845 days ago

I thought this was very interesting, written in a frank and amusing way. There are some typos but soon zapped. Backed with pleasure.
BADD

Beval wrote 845 days ago

I think the foremost thought in my head is...where do you get your shoes? I have never seen any transexual girl who didn't have the most fabulous shoes. I'm a tall woman and I've got big feet, so please...where do you buy those beautiful shoes big enough to fit a man's foot, or in my case a big woman's foot.
As far as the book is concerned, I thought it was frank and quite moving. You have a life style that isn't for everyone that's for sure, but as a part of it you have some very loving and loyal friends and that is not something all of us can say.
Keep safe and look after yourself. I wish you joy and I'm more than happy to back a book I think has depths beyond the sex and drugs if the reader looks for it.

CarolinaAl wrote 848 days ago

Your writing is tight, smooth and interesting. Your stories are believeable and give the reader a detailed look at a gritty world foreign to most of us. Thank you for an informative and entertaining trip to the wild side. Backed.

toodles wrote 848 days ago

Dear Lavinia: I think you have an interesting inner voice and remind me of a modern day Xavier Hollander who wrote "The Happy Hooker" back in the '70s.

I have a couple of suggestions. I agree with other comments about cutting Chapter One. All writing should pass the test of whether your stuff "shows, rather than tells" the story. The chapters of each book will tell the reader who you are and what you are all about.

Currently you are telling us information rather than showing us. Pretend your book is a movie. For example, an early chapter tells us you are going to hang out at the bar Arq. Rather than summarize the events of the evening, set up real scenes that illustrate with words since they must do the work of film showing us.

Describe the place where you live, show us you getting dressed while at the same time narrating your inner thoughts. At Arq, describe the place, tell us who you are with or meet up with and describe them. All the while during these descriptions, keep up bits of your inner funny, sarcastic thoughts on them.

Now that you have set the scene for us, show these people doing things you describe with the addition of actual dialogue using quotation marks during that person's actions, all the while keeping your inner thoughts sprinkled in about this moment.

I know revising is a pain in the rear, but it is a 100% necessary in getting your stuff published in my humble opinion.

Best Wishes to you in all aspects of life!
Tracy (PS: delete chapter one and then your email won't be there either!)

Sessha Batto wrote 848 days ago

Lavinia -

There's a lot to like about your book. you have a fresh, distinctive voice which makes the pages speed by and a wicked wit that kept me chuckling. I don't think you need the first chapter, the apologies shouldn't be necessary . . . if you do keep it I'd shorten it greatly and make it a forward, it detracts from the rest as it is IMO. You have lots of interesting material and very funny stories, but after a few chapters I began looking for a plot, I know it's a memoir, but I still want to feel like the story is progressing somehow. Backed because it's a breath of fresh air.

Sessha

Sava Tennoio wrote 848 days ago

Hey there Lavinia,

Well, I said I'd give your book a read, and so I did. I read up until I think chapter 5--skipping a few of the more detailed parts, begging your pardon. This isn't my sort of book, as you know I come from a conservative background and still hold to it--but I can recognize good writing when I see it. You have the perfect writing style here--so blunt, colorful and yet smooth at the same time. Your choice for a narrative voice ( "I" instead of "she") is absolutely perfect for this story.

I'm going to go ahead and back this, my friend.

Warmest Regards,
Alexis A. Hunter
(The Five Staffs of Meledari)

samtsuji wrote 848 days ago

I agree with the others who say drop the disclaimers. Something you have to believe is that your story is worth being told and worth being read. If you come at believing people are going to discredit it or hate you for it, they will. From the chapters I've read so far, you don't seem the type to allow people to tell you how to live your life, so why start doing it now? As we say in the midwest, "Cowboy Up."

Your story is gritty, dirty, and uncomfortable. So is life. You have a unique voice, and a natural style to your writing. I think the story is definitely valuable and important and worth being told and read.

The suggestion I would have for you is this: The diary style can work, but your story is face paced and your language moves it forward. I suggest trying to create a more straight forward narrative, just tell the story as if you were sitting in front of me and talking to me. I feel like by sectioning each 'day' you're interrupting something that would read better fluid. If you can find a way to bridge from one day to the next, I think it would make your book even more startling. Don't give the reader the chance to take a breath and consider, thrust them into the story and drag them along with you. The hard reality and pace of your language works for you, make the most of it.

I'm shelving it. Best of luck.

David Zemp wrote 848 days ago

Your book is on my watchlist. I think is has potential. My only advise so far - drop the first chapter and jump straight into the story. Will read more. If it continues to impress me, I will back it. PS - your message to me got me interested. Good job advertising!

SE Champenby wrote 848 days ago

Do cut out the begging to be published bit. Even if you get published, you'll probably need to keep your day job - or night job. Otherwise, the writing is good, snappy, plenty of shock value, keeps you reading.
Good luck!

katie78 wrote 848 days ago

hm. i wonder about the disclaimers. i'd cut some of the warnings about sex and drugs, (no one would pick up this book at a bookstore if tey're timid about these things.)
but i like the one about writing while you're drunk. the format is a bit different- the 'this is what the book is about', self-consious tone. it remnds me of 'a heartbreaking work of staggering genius' which was a memoir that broke 'rules' abot form and did really well.
good luck.

Pia wrote 849 days ago

Hi Lavina,

Tranny whore - I'm impressed, you asked me to come here. I respond. Thanks, had you not asked I would have skipped your book because of the pitch. It's the author jerking off, I thought, not a character who's given a role and voice to test his/her truth against other players so we are shown the conflict. Then again, what's the difference? You are engaging the reader directely in the conflict.
Sex is raw and real, the rocket base for relationship per se. The beginning of life, wherever the journey lands us, home inside or lost in space. Freud had a point, sex is basically about power, and it takes two to play, the agressor and the one who surrenders. It's the gender identification we negotiate beyond physical endowments. You say you wanted this to be a love story, why not, it's a goldmine, extract the gold. I back the adventure. All the Best success.

Pia (Course of Mirrors)

marywood18 wrote 849 days ago

I enjoyed this and commend you for your honesty and courage in getting your life down in print and sharing it with the world.

I only read the first chapter and found nothing offensive in it. I was drawn here by a message I saw in someone else's message box just below mine. I read it and thought, she would never ask me, an old lady, to read her book in a million years so I invited myself.

Your style ( by that I am referring to your writing, not that I am not sure that your personal style is any less) is excellent and your voice is just right for the material. There is irony, humour and sarcasm.

In just one chapter I can tell this is worthy of being published. When you get time in your busy schedule, you do need to edit it carefully. Look out for any missed words. Best to read it out loud to find these as the little beggers will not show up otherwise. And, check the repetition, some should stay, but at one point you repeated a whold paragraph.

A good edit shows you care about your work, it is boring to do, but is appreciated by your reader and agents/publishers alike.

I believe there are publishers that specialize in publishing your genre, you will have to research them and submit this to them.

I wish you every luck in placing it as I do in you achieving the changes in your life that you long for, though they are not all dependant on having money...Oh Oh, better stop there before I start sounding like I am preaching. Take care, your book is on my shelf, best wishes, Mary.

Yolanda Christian wrote 849 days ago

Filthy Tranny Whore - The tran....
To be honest this line is all you need for your pitch:
“I love drugs, hanging out in bars, casual sex and fucking with people’s heads. I’m a transsexual, a disaster and this is my true story.”
However the rest of the pitch is compelling stuff. I don’t see why trannies should not have a blatant voice amongst all of the other blatant voices. There is sadness to be too.

When is a whore a whore? Celebrity Big Brother?

The directness that the author opens with, is something I can identify with.

As for writing when drunk, well painters have been painting under the influence for a l-o-n-g time, while Van Gogh was mentally deranged with l’absinthe! You are only part of a conventional, unconventional crowd!

Some paras are repetitious. I laughed about the suing bit. When you get to ‘What this is about’, you are dragging it out for the reader and in danger of losing effect.

Just a technical question, seriously – can Brittany do the fucking when pissed, or does Brittany receive sex while pissed? Are you Brittany? If so I’d like you to tell us that:

“My name is Brittany, and ...” from the start.

As the novel moves on, I wonder if you could expand by allowing some descriptions in, to give the reader a break from the hardness?

I’m glad you fought for your right to be on the site.

When you have been through the art college system as I have, [and student film-makers get a first for making films like ‘C—ks--ker’ – well, nothing can surprise you.

LeahPet wrote 849 days ago

OK, this is really good; a gritty, bitter, sarcastic voice and I love it already. You could lose a few of the “apologies” in the opening. The explanations are wonderful. “I write drunk. In fact, I am drunk right now.” Perfect.

“Sex scenes, drugs, and swear words.” Totally unnecessary. We’d already picked that up. “It also explains all the spelling mistakes…” this one’s an apology. Stick to the explanations. They’re dry and in-your-face and exactly what you want to convey. Most of “this is true” is unnecessary. Tell us it’s true in that same sharp style and leave out all the “if you have a tranny girlfriend…” stuff.

Most of “what this is about” is a turn-off. Partly because that’s true for every one of us. No matter why we came to or stick with our art, we obviously want to make money and are all whoring ourselves out for a read by an agent or publisher. You just come across as begging here and that actually drives away the people who were otherwise drawn in by your voice.

And please don’t do that because the next chapter is just brilliant. Fabulous. This. Is. Good. Stuff.

I realize this is a diary and I’m critiquing it like a book. That’s because if you want to sell it it has to read like a book, true or not.

Fantastic, fascinating, witty, hilarious, gut-wrenching stuff you’ve got here. I really hope this goes somewhere. Backed resoundingly and bookmarked so I can come back for more.

Leah Petersen – Mourn the Sun

Paige Pendleton wrote 849 days ago

"Nothing about me is real"

Maybe this is, maybe it isn't. If it is, I deserves my back for challenging the establishment and candor. If it isn't, it deserves my back for challenging the establishment and creativity.

Nick Poole2 wrote 849 days ago

Blimey. This is good.

How To Be a filthy a trannie whore in various short lessons. Might be useful one day...

JanB wrote 850 days ago

Interesting stuff.
I read ch 1 and 3 and enjoyed what I found.
I hope the book brings you the relief you seek.

JanB
Table for One

paxie wrote 851 days ago

Lavinia

Well your spot on when you say you've got to do more with your life....If this book helps you achieve that , then Way-To-Go, you've got my support...

.......I'm on chapter 3...I think I live in a bubble, this is enlightening.....thanks for sharing...I'd never learn this otherwise....

.......But for me this story doesnt start at the beginning....I;d have liked a prologue, (your life before trannyism)....Like you dont just wake up one day and decide today is the day I'm going to become a tranny........I'm going shopping for a pair of size 12 stilettoes and thats that ? Do you.....?

Maybe that comes later ?

Anyway, good luck to you..........

HawkeyeHall wrote 852 days ago

This is a totally unique book. Not because of the writing or the structure but because books about trannies are well outside the mainstream. It took me into a world I know nothing about and began to open my eyes to an alternative life. There is an element of prurience in reading about someone else's intimate existence but on the other hand there's also a lot to be said for the honesty that comes from reading about aspects of life that no-one ever speaks about. Good luck with it.

Jared wrote 853 days ago

I backed this when it first appeared. The pitch alone compelled my support for your book and your reasons for writing it. I see you've had your troubles on the site - I saw this as a courageous book with much to offer to an enlightened readership. I've gone back and read more and my opinion hasn't changed. This is going back on my shelf for a prolonged stay.
Jared.

Michael Stone wrote 854 days ago

Okay, I read the first six chapters completely and then skipped ahead a bit, for time's sake. Powerful first line. Honesty follows. Men are fucked up, and the market is there, but how many men have the balls to go out and buy a book like this? Certainly not over the counter with the cashier judging, and not online with a paper trail, though that might take less courage if they live alone. A brave niche audience will probably be the best you could hope for at first, but that might be enough to spur a cult following, which will eventually launch the book via word of mouth to a vast audience.

Good start. A clear intro into the characters. I like that you're two different people by day and by night. Both sides of the personality. The public face, the private face (let out to play), yet neither is the real you, the third face, still unknown. Reminds me of Eliot's poem on how all cats have three names. Only you have more than three.

It's one thing to say that you (or Brittany, or whoever) will fuck with someone's head. It's another to explain it in such a way that it gets understood. Your writing is blunt and forthright, but not crude.

The first sex scene is clear cut writing. Not flowery like some erotica, not crude like some porn. Somewhere inbetween. Straightforward. No embroidery to make it inoffensive, but also no excessiveness. Not love, not a forced reluctant fuck, just mutual sex. Clean. I also like that Neto is a kind of safety net. A no-strings-attached on-hand casual physical relationship. Keeps the lonelies away, a little, without chains. It says a lot, so it was a good passage to include.

'Is there a word for men who are not gay but into trannies?' Good question. With all the labels (bi-curious, two-spirited, etc.), you'd think there would be. Maybe you will invent one.

I laughed at the game you played in the straight bar with all the 'hetros', and their lack of courage. Are all guys potentially gay? Or are all guys just so easily turned on and horny enough that they'll consider any situation, even those they wouldn't consider when not drunk and horny? Seriously? No such thing as a straight guy? Surely in all your experience you must have come across (no pun intended) a few completely straight guys. Whether or not they were prejudiced or open-minded, that's another thing. Some people say that in the far future, all people will be pansexual. I wonder if trannies are ahead of the evolutionary curve.

I like the way you equate your reactions to the banal come-ons that men use with being insulted. Essentially, I think you show here that trannies feel the same as any straight girl or lesbian about how men (or other lesbians) treat them. Just as some ignorant people associate gay with pedophile (especially when it comes to catholic priests), so too do people often associate any other sexuality outside the accepted standard definition of normal as perverted or easy. Trannies, like anyone, can have standards that can meet or exceed the average sexual partner who is out for a new adventure.

Step #5. Cute.

Your feelings for Lulu. Her sadness, your confusion. Very "normal" (natural) amid all this "difference". Very revealing. Revealing, in a book/diary, is a good theme. It's why readers buy diaries.

'There's a lot of stuff you never should say, because saying it ruins it' - great line!

'fucking them and loving them doesn't mean I understand anything about them' - How true. Been there, done that.

Honest, open, revealing, blunt, meaningful, I'll even say pithy. Backed. I hope they let you stay. Good luck!




benrichardm wrote 855 days ago

I like this. I hope it doesn't get taken down!!! We need more people who aren't scared to write about true feeling, real events, the darker side of life.

Love it, Ben

S Richard Betterton wrote 855 days ago

A wonderful insight into a life that many of us know little about, and unfortunately some have completely misguided preconceptions. Wanted to get here before the ban comes into force, if it does. If they see sense they´ll change their minds. I mean it is a site for over 18s. Anyway, great stuff.
Cheers,
Simon (Back to LIfe)

Jane Alexander wrote 855 days ago

Well this kicks Belle de Jour into a bucket! Pretty amazed you're being censored with it though..

Geveret wrote 855 days ago

Probably the sexiest head-f***ing out there.

DDickson wrote 855 days ago

hello - I had your message and decided to give your book a look. It is not something that I would normally choose. Your writing is pretty straight forward. You already know that there are quite a number of spelling and grammatical errors so we won't bother with those. I'm afraid that the only thing that I really felt was bored. I suppose that is because other people's sex life is not really interesting to me. I would really have liked to read more about how it actually feels to be a transexual in a "normal" world and what the problems are. How did you end up as and where you are and what exactly are you trying to do to "get out of it". I didn't read any further than chapter three but that is already two chapters more than my usual, unless a book is very gripping. I wanted to give you a fair reading and so I stuck with it a bit longer. I should think that if you could have some help from people who have written this sort of thing you may be able to get somewhere with this, also, I do think that there will be pubishers and magazines who would be interested in this sort of graphic stuff. I note that you have said that you don't read much. I really think that it would help your writing if you had a look at a few of the more graphic, but well written books. Try Tipping the Velvet as a starter. It is extremely well written and deals with sexuality and indeed sex in a way that keeps a readers interest. I wish you well with whatever you are trying to do with this.

FrancescaPolini wrote 855 days ago

Clever, different, intense. Cool. I wouldn't start the long pitch with the same sentence of the short pitch but then that's me! Backed.

Lavinia wrote 855 days ago

Hi, it’s me, Lavinia

This is serious.

I’ve just got off the phone with Miranda (it’s not her real name, but it’s what I call her in the book) She’s still not so happy with me, mostly she likes the way I describe her, but insists she’s not that much of a bitch when she is drunk. She doesn’t like that part of my description and it’s a bit of a strain on our friendship at the moment. She is a bitch though. So I’m not changing anything.

Anyway, she was re-reading the part where I blow Oscar off and she had this to say – I didn’t take notes so this is from memory, but you get the idea…

Anyway she says “do you know why you blow all those guys off?”

I say “because they are not my type”.

She says “then what is your type”.

I think about this and refer her to my description of Neto. She says “bullshit, you like Neto because he’s not that into you and it’s safe”. Which is kind of true I guess. Then she says “you know who your type is?” I say “surprise me”, she says “your type of guy is the type of guy that’s interested in me, Lulu or Brittany”. You don’t want anyone who wants you”, she proceeds to tell me how full of shit I am before her big statement: “you have to stop being not good enough for yourself”.

She didn’t say exactly that, but that was the gist of it. Talk about deep and meaningful.

I laugh it off and we don’t take it further. And I manage to change subject.

But for the last hour I’ve been thinking about what she said. And she’s right.

My stupid diary. Maybe this is what the whole disaster is really about. Maybe this is what my book means. What do you think? Does this make sense to you? Let me know... anyway...

I’m going to wait until I’ve got some more comments and then go back and fix up the book, nothing serious, just fix my stupid spelling and add a few more entries back in that I edited out last time round and some other small stuff that people have said that seems to make sense.

But when I do, I’ll put this observation of Miranda’s in there somewhere.

Thank you for reading this and helping with comments and stuff and making me feel less alone with what I’m doing.

X

Lavinia


P.S. Miranda I know you’ll read the comments so this is for you: you really are a bitch.

See, I do listen to you.XXX!

JD Revene wrote 855 days ago

Lavinia,

I confess I was intrigued by the pitch (my own work deals with a couple whose sexual practices are not society's norm).

The pitch is a hundred miles an hour and reminds me of Sydney's Oxford Street later on a Friday night (probably actually early on a Saturday morning).

I see this biography, so commenting comes from a different place than on fiction: after all what happened, happened.

My God! I've now got to the bottom of chapter one and realise you are in Sydney.

The Taxi club, eh? I don't know that one. My work starts in a strip club in a Pitt St basement.

Chapter three wow!

You know, I've read four chapters and I'm sure there's a market for this.

The insights are fascinating.

Chapter five you have the line: I'm quite good at blowing me off . . . and while I don't doubt it--either way--that might perhaps be misunderstood!

Backed

Judy Curl wrote 856 days ago

Diff kept things interesting. The story was to say the least interesting or should I saying fucking interesting. I liked your, shall I say, devil may care attitude about your daily activities. It was like here is what i did and why and this is how it went, don't care if you like it, but I did it anyway. Enjoyed what I read.

Sumarus wrote 856 days ago

Fascinating, intense, there are so many adjectives that come to my mind that I find it hard to pick just one. This, despite not being the sort of thing I'd usually read, is revealing, interesting...

After reading the pitch I felt I had to read this with some urgency, despite having a rather full watch list and this one being lower in the pile, and it soon found its way in front of others that have been waiting for a little while.

Somewhat mind-blowing it has to be said, and as a reader I feel a real need to read more. There's enough depth here without being baffled by too many details or deep description, the sort of thing I like. I hate the colour, fabric and texture of a rug that has no relevance drawing my attention away from what's happening. So, while this isn't the sort of content I would usually go for, it's written in the sort of way that I like to read. Your narrative voice is very dialogic, that is it feels more like a conversation, perhaps at a bar, than a deep monotonous life story, and there is an intimacy within the story being shared and the way you tell it.

The only thing to look out for, and while I understand you write when you're drunk (possibly one of the best times to write, I have found myself) is be wary of any little mistakes. Even though you explain that you are often quite inebriated when you write, you still need to go back and correct little spelling and grammatical errors. Most of these, however, are one letter missing, in the wrong place, or a slight misspelling.

Apart from that, it's good stuff, and I am happy to back this.

K.Z. Freeman wrote 856 days ago

Ok I read the first two chapters. And honestly, my reacton was: WHAT THE FUCK.

Withouth a question or exclamation mind you. As this what the fuck actually came out in a strangely good and impressed way. Because god damn it, this book needs to ge to the top. If for nothing else, then for its sheer crazyness and the fact that it completly stands out from anything else. And on top of that, it is grosely entertaining. I would watch this it were a fucked up series. And while I know that at times I would indeed be like "what the fuck is this?" I would at the same time be entertained.

backed with fucking plesure!!! I feel like I know how to go about succesfully banging a tranny now..........


if you can manage it, have a look at one of my titles, I have a feeling you might liek the humor in How To Kill A Hitman, cheers! ;)

Socrates wrote 856 days ago

Lavinia, I am sitting here thinking why me, what have done to deserve this, and on and on. Then I realized you are like everyone else, not your life, but the fact that we all want something we haven't got. Your book will shock some, and open up the eyes of other's, like they have never been opened up before. I don't think you should be on authonomy, you would make a perfect guest on the Graham Norton show, only joking. I think the Shock Factor would make a great reality TV. It would certainly make Simon Cowell sit up, and take notice.

I will put you on my shelf, and probably lose all my friends in the process. Lavinia, well done, and keep up the good work.
Darran H.
* Socrates * ( The Spirits Of The Forest .)

Professor Iwik wrote 857 days ago

Hey,
I read 3 chapters. It certainly was an eye opener.
Your honesty is commendable. You most certainly do not have the most glamarous lifestyle, but that doesn't seem to effect how you talk about it. You talk about people fucking in the back of taxis and in toilets, as though it's the most ordinary thing in the world. Obviously, it is for you, just not for most people. (no offence intended)
Writing drunk has paid off, in fact i do it myself sometimes -- it's clear that these accounts are fresh in your mind as you write them so clearly. You do have a few nits in there, but you'll easily catch them when you come to editing.
On the shelf. I think this is the kind of book that could be published, because it's shocking and very different.

Regards,

Mark H

T Mackenzie wrote 857 days ago

Delightful!

Chuck full of ‘sparklers’ such as these:
”Nothing like. . . a new set of breasts to bring people together. . .Everyone wants to touch the new arrivals. . .”

For complete and total schizophrenic effect, may I suggest a back to back reading of FTW and The Eton Mothers' Handbook????
Guaranteed to blenderize your brain.

On the other hand, both books share similar virtues – they appear to be about a rather foreign world, fascinating in their occult detail. .yet, the humanity in these two books are what really gore the reader.
Backed.

harveya wrote 857 days ago

I read your message to "Monthony," who is a friend of mine and I knew at once I had to read your book. I have started it. I've read enough to know what you are: a terrific writer. I am very taken with your openness, your honesty and your totally forthright way of writing. This is great stuff. I don't know its commercial potential--it doesn't compare to anything I can think of. But it is enlightening, instructive and much fun. I hope that in some unexpected way, it helps you hit the jackpot. Harvey Ardman

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