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rank 5466
word count 41482
date submitted 17.02.2010
date updated 18.02.2010
genres: Religious
classification: moderate
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To Hell With It

Misty Clark

I tell my story about something that affects the majority of people, married or single.

 

Like so many others I was sick and tired of being sick and tired! I hated where my life had gotten me and despised my own husband. My marriage was over and I was slipping into alcoholism, drugs, and suicidal thoughts. It was a long slow death but my husband's choice to enjoy a love affair with pornography and no leadership of his home was creating a monster in our home. That monster turned out to be me. I had become an angry, bitter, scorned wife not knowing how to change myself or save my marriage. Having my first child and loving her so much but longing to die due to the pain I felt in my marriage. I no longer had the strength to move forward. I made choices to in act my own revenge and ultimately damage my marriage further and kill myself even more. Suicide became the only way to end the pain and save my daughter from her own mother, until God stepped in and revealed another path.

 
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JCMolloy wrote 583 days ago

Wow! Talk about a book that body-slams you into a compulsion to read the whole book! Great start! Courageous chapters.... well written. Deserves a much higher rating on autonomy. No question that this will be in bookstores soon!
Jim

yasmin esack wrote 586 days ago

Misty, i love your book. You tell it straight up. A book that will change the lives of many

backed

the mind setter

scorselo wrote 678 days ago

A sincere and moving story, told with intensity.

Backed

Scorselo

Barry Wenlock wrote 716 days ago

I was fascinated to read this work. I'm not a Christian, but I thought that you write very well and that your book deserved more support on authonomy. I do hope you are still writing
I shall read more, when I get some time.
Best wishes, Barry
Little Krisna and the Bihar boys

ldurrence wrote 786 days ago

Your story has a truth about God's grace and mercy. The honesty in the story will help others to realize that God can and does work in our struggles. I can't remember what chapter, one or two, but there were some word tense issues. I knew should be I know.
I have backed your book because I believe it is a reflection of your soul. I hope you will take time to read my poems in Through the Storms and Beyond. They help me remember that God is in control of every situation and that all storms in life have a very meaningful purpose... even when we can't see the purpose.

DWL wrote 795 days ago

There's a raw edge to your story, a feeling like we're right on the edge with you. That said, you write in a simple, straightforward style that balances the subject matter and tone. It's like the reader is listening to you rather than reading. This story has a lot to recommend itself: the honesty, the transitions between paragraphs, the flowing style and the sheer courage it must have taken to write it. Backed.

Dana L.
The Book of Lucas

AlanMarling wrote 799 days ago

Dear Misty Clark,

Thank you for sharing your story with us. Your story opens with intensity, with your admission that you’re not proud of all your actions while you were in the clutches of anger and bitterness. You temper this negativity with hope, telling us you did find an out. This strength in the face of extreme negativity is crucial to give the reader the same strength to finish the story. I loved the power of the line: “It was April Fools Day and what a fool I was.” The stakes are set in that you’re tempted to take a drink first thing in the morning, even knowing it could put your baby at risk. You have gripped my full attention. You then describe your dread at what Ray might be doing at home, ramping up the suspense. Again, you set the stakes by speaking of your love for him and belief in his love for his family as well. The horror and agony of catching him leap off the page, and you portray exactly what this betrayal means to you. Another great line: “I wondered where all our men had gone.” The following lines are all good as well, such as “I’m not the woman with the headache here.” You describe your emotions well, such as “Death is bearing over me”, and this allows the reader to taste the same despair. The amount of sympathy you have is staggering. The intensity is such that I felt I needed a chapter break around “the perversion in his heart”. His addiction created a cloud of negativity, where you felt obliged to spy in your own household. The loss of trust is a grave matter. You create similar tension and suspense as before when spying in the bathroom, but I feel this needs to be in a new chapter.

In my fallible opinion, you could improve your pitches. First, the short pitch is too general. Instead, just say what’s at stake: A new mother struggles with thoughts of suicide due to the rejection of her husband, who chooses porn over her. Or something to that effect. Also, I suggest against the “sick and tired” bit in your long pitch, as the following lines are more potent. Also, emphasize that this is a true story, and select the appropriate genre tab.

I am amazed at your achievement in writing and in the strength you found in life. Bravo! Backed, and best wishes. This project interests me enough that I'd be happy to help you on it further.

Battle Knyght wrote 813 days ago

The title says it all.
BK

DKTD1 wrote 817 days ago

Very brave and honest writing. For the purposes of this site, you might change your format a bit, remove the page numbers, etc... just to make it flow better.

Dan-
Eunice Stubbins, among others...

Teric Darken wrote 818 days ago

Misty,

I enjoyed your frankness and testimony. A very straightforward, no nonsense read! Keep fighting the good fight!

Shalom!

Teric Darken (K - I - L - L FM 100: "Music to Die For!")

Francesco wrote 819 days ago

I thought this was a very sincere piece of work; well told and interesting.
Backed!
A look at Sicilian Shadows would be greatly appreciated.
Frank.

To hell with it wrote 819 days ago

Paxie,
I have never heard of HarperTrue actually. I am new to this I wrote this book not with the goal of being a writer but to help others that I know are broken and hurting. I feel odd being here but found that the comments are helping me shape the material into a book in the respect of grammer and spelling. I will not allow changes to the content much simply because it has to remain true... Thank you for your encouragement and support! Do you know how I contact HarperTrue?

Misty
Have you thought of contacting HarperTrue, they have just offered a publishing contract to a chap on this site, who wrote of the abuse him and his brothers suffered during the war at the hands of foster parents.... You send 2000 words of your true life story and they help shape the rest....

I feel humbled, thank you for sharing,.......

Shelved with enthusiasm and respect..

paxie wrote 819 days ago

Misty
Have you thought of contacting HarperTrue, they have just offered a publishing contract to a chap on this site, who wrote of the abuse him and his brothers suffered during the war at the hands of foster parents.... You send 2000 words of your true life story and they help shape the rest....

I feel humbled, thank you for sharing,.......

Shelved with enthusiasm and respect..

MarkRTrost wrote 819 days ago

You've written something very personal and quite confessional. I can see it guiding others through their pursuit for spiritual clarity.

Mark R. Trost
"Post Marked."

Jesse Hargreave wrote 820 days ago

Backed.

Jesse - Savant

Tawn Anderson wrote 821 days ago

You have very skillfully brought us into the pain and bitterness you were enduring, but in a way that we both empahthize and care for all the individuals. That is very hard to do without coming accross bitchy or making someone into a bad guy. I don't usually read these types of storys, but this wone is well writter. I wish you the best of luck and I am happy to back it.

Tawn Anderson (Providence)

Barry Wenlock wrote 822 days ago

I'm happy to back your book - depression is tough and even the bluest sky is grey.
Best wishes,
Barry (Little Krisna and the Bihar Boys)

Wilma1 wrote 822 days ago

A moving and thought provoking book and how someone found help to see them through it. On my shelf in suport from one writer to another. good luck

Sue Mackender
Knowing Liam Riley

emywoo84 wrote 822 days ago

Both honest and unusual - whether people agree with the motivation behind it is another thing - but then if they don't it will spark debate. Backed - I hope you have time to take a look at Nightfall :)

TheLoriC wrote 824 days ago

This is just fascinating, finding an awakening when one is at their lowest point. I think many of us can identify with your plight and some higher power intervening before we do something which can't be reversed. On my shelf for its strong promise.

L. Anne Carrington, "The Cruiserweight"

To hell with it wrote 824 days ago

Thank you and I respect that view!

I'm not going to argue wether God told you to write this or not, what I will say is that this is an unusual book, original in style on a strange subject matter; maybe it is inspired from HIM...

Su Dan wrote 824 days ago

I'm not going to argue wether God told you to write this or not, what I will say is that this is an unusual book, original in style on a strange subject matter; maybe it is inspired from HIM...

To hell with it wrote 824 days ago

Thank you Carla,
I am so grateful that you took the time to look at this and give your thoughts. I tend to feel intimidated here and way out of my league with all the talent present. I enjoyed your work as well it made me want to curl up on the couch and just spend the day there... I wish I were more educated in writing so I could offer more to you than I enjoyed it and would purchase the book as a reader but in the end that is what you are looking for right??


Thanks again
Misty Clark

Hi Misty, (love that name) Your work is gut-wrenchingly honest and frank. Very heartfelt reading and you write in a lovely simplistic fashion, your style is not forced or fancy. I do hope the 'atheists' out there don't attack your wonderful spiritual journey through God. It's simply a lovely expression and I wish your book well, and I hope people learn much through it.
Best wishes,
Carla
The Last Gift

To hell with it wrote 824 days ago

Sorry I hope you can read in between my own version of spelling there.. My daughter was talking to me as I was typing.

Misty

Tim, Thank you for reading the book and giving feedback. I am not completely sure I depicted my husband the way a outsider would due to the fact I am so deaply in love with him and the pain was beyond words. Marriage is a two party contract you know? Both have to take ownership in the contract and live up to thier end of the deal. If you look at marriage and the unity of two uniquely different people coming together tring to work as one unit, then you can each see how to compliment the other. My goal was to expose the pain I was in but still reconize that my husband is a good man and I had to own up to my breech of the marriage contract as well. Thanks again and good luck.

Misty Clark


To hell with it wrote 824 days ago

Tim, Thank you for reading the book and giving feedback. I am not completely sure I depicted my husband the way a outsider would due to the fact I am so deaply in love with him and the pain was beyond words. Marriage is a two party contract you know? Both have to take ownership in the contract and live up to thier end of the deal. If you look at marriage and the unity of two uniquely different people coming together tring to work as one unit, then you can each see how to compliment the other. My goal was to expose the pain I was in but still reconize that my husband is a good man and I had to own up to my breech of the marriage contract as well. Thanks again and good luck.

Misty Clark


This book reminds me of my marriage though Ray does not sound like me. I don't know which of us is to blame, but my wife began to excoriate me when we first moved in together, and she hasn't let up for ten years. It's always been her project to perfect me, so her idea of a pleasant conversation is to enumerate my many faults, and it's up to me to correct them. She has none that she will acknowledge, and to even suggest that she does sends her into paroxysms of anger and verbal abuse that don't let up for hours.

My backing and generic are an opening gambit. I value honest opinions of my work and want you to feel safe in giving me one. If you want my honest opinion, just ask.

Tim Chambers
Moonbeam Highway: With Apologies to Miguel de Cervantes.

Carla_Anne wrote 825 days ago

Hi Misty, (love that name) Your work is gut-wrenchingly honest and frank. Very heartfelt reading and you write in a lovely simplistic fashion, your style is not forced or fancy. I do hope the 'atheists' out there don't attack your wonderful spiritual journey through God. It's simply a lovely expression and I wish your book well, and I hope people learn much through it.
Best wishes,
Carla
The Last Gift

marywood18 wrote 825 days ago

Well done, Misty.

You write from your heart. You touch a nerve in all who read. It will be a different one for everyone, some may say you should accept, men are men, some will say, you should have left him, rather than allow his hurting of you drag satan into the battle, but still more, will understand and be glad to have gone on this journey with you. I didn't get to the end of it, because of time restraints, but am glad for that reason that you told me you came out good in the end.

From a commercial point of view, though, I would not give the game away like that. Let your reader go on the journey with you without knowing the outcome, it will up the tension and the page turning quality no-end.

You could ask a series of questions: Will I get through? Will Satan or God win? What will happen to my marriage? or, a set of statements, 'One woman's journey to Hell. A harrowing journey of drink, betrayal and love that took Misty to the brink of suicide.

There are a lot of ways of enticing readers in, but giving them the outcome, in such detail, could kill their desire to read on.

Backed with pleasure and good luck, this must have been cathargic to you and will certainly be a help to others.

Best wishes, Mary.

kevinwong_HoD wrote 825 days ago

Hi Misty. Your book is a tragic one, but in it, you show the hope and goodness that can come from belief in God: faith that a better day will happen. Bless you for still being here to share your story and to inspire many to get through their own dark times, or help usher in brighter ones for people near and far.

Yours Truly,

Kevin Wong
Author of Heroes of Destiny

bonalibro wrote 825 days ago

This book reminds me of my marriage though Ray does not sound like me. I don't know which of us is to blame, but my wife began to excoriate me when we first moved in together, and she hasn't let up for ten years. It's always been her project to perfect me, so her idea of a pleasant conversation is to enumerate my many faults, and it's up to me to correct them. She has none that she will acknowledge, and to even suggest that she does sends her into paroxysms of anger and verbal abuse that don't let up for hours.

My backing and generic are an opening gambit. I value honest opinions of my work and want you to feel safe in giving me one. If you want my honest opinion, just ask.

Tim Chambers
Moonbeam Highway: With Apologies to Miguel de Cervantes.

udasmaan wrote 825 days ago

You have started briliantly, great job. happily backed

shah

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