As a child, I was scared of my dad, mum was threatened many times, all in a "Christian" home. Sexually abused at 12yrs.
This is the story of my life growing up in Scotland in a "Christian" home,my mum was totally awesome and a great caring mother, but with my dad, I wasn't sure what Christian meant. It was tough, my dad was always hitting me.He also threatened to punch my mum many times. My dad always put me down, he always told me that I would amount to nothing, he told me that I was a disgrace to him and the church. Those words resonated in my head for many years. At 12yrs of age, I was sexually abused.
I was bullied when I went to school and played truant for two months. At 13yrs of age I was looking for some kind of love and acceptance. As a teen I started drinking and smoking, now I had found comfort, this took away my misery temporarily. After nine years of marriage, I eventually became involved in a love affair, not long after this I was separated and divorced. Being divorced from my two kids, I couldn't take any more, I contemplated suicide. Now I knew I was useless, but God stepped in at the last minute and saved me.