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rank 5320
word count 13248
date submitted 04.11.2008
date updated 11.11.2010
genres: Non-fiction, Biography, Harper True...
classification: adult
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memoirs of a strange little girl

Sara McGrath

My mother named me after a song of loss and bittersweet memory. It could have set the tune for my life, but it didn't.

 

My mother name me after Bob Dylan's Sara, his song of loss and bittersweet memory. The song could have set the tune for my life with cries of Gypsy violin and harmonica. Instead, it gave me solace, a sad music place where I felt at home.

...I wish that I had grown up with my father, but I grew up with Ann’s father. I called him Dad for those first six years when children believe in magic and bogeymen. He stands only five feet, eight inches tall, but his shadow stretches the length of my life. I catch glimpses of it, looming behind me when I stand alone in the shower, arising from dark corners where I feel too afraid to turn and look.

...In my dream, my father lies belly-up on the floor of a supermarket–perhaps on his way to the chocolate aisle–capsized on the cold white-gray speckled linoleum under bright lights, out of place like a beached whale, bare skin under XXXL overalls and river sandals. Yet he doesn’t seem concerned with righting himself.

 
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autobiography, child abuse, death, grieving, loss, memoirs, sexual abuse

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Romilla wrote 448 days ago

memoirs of a strange little girl: SARA McGRATH

I couldn't help enjoying your read Sara...the voice of a little girl trailing her way through the read......somewhat poetic I thought the manner you wrote stringing my thoughts along with your writing.

Rather refreshing and honest too... So, I couldn't help shelving it....after all, a little girl's mind is what powers the engine for the years ahead right? That's what I learnt...I was a little girl once too...

Best of luck Sara,

Romilla
Forgetting Sally

Eunice Attwood wrote 454 days ago

I was once a strange little girl, so I was drawn to this book. It is such a beautiful story, deeply moving, raw and honest. This is such a fascinating tale, I am glad you decided to put it on paper. I am happy to give you 5 stars and a place on my shelf when one becomes available. Eunice - The Temple Dancer.

Andrew W. wrote 793 days ago

strange little girl: memoir of a sad-eyed lady

Hi Sara,

What a great bit of storytelling, you spare us the sentimentality simply get on with the story from beginning to end. You have a unique voice which takes us time to get out head around but eventually it becomes as much part of charm of the book as does your honesty. Brave, articulate, open and clear, I would hope and pray that this was cathartic to write. I enjoyed this, although that is the wrong wood, but what I mean is became utterly immersed in this charming narrative.

Happy to back this bees
Best wishes and good luck
Andrew W
(Sanctuary's Loss)

hodgepodgespv wrote 919 days ago
msaraann wrote 1032 days ago

Thanks, Kat, for your comments. I find the writing healing, too.

DecrepitOldBag wrote 1040 days ago

I have read up to the end of chapter six. At first, I found your rather disjointed writing style to be difficult to read properly. However, I have quickly grown used to it and have read avidly. I too, suffered. My book is my autobiography. I wonder how many more of us are out in the world, still suffering, still called liar, still wondering, in our everyday lives, if it really was our fault.
I cried when the kittens died. I cried when Sunny was punched. I didn't cry at the brief 'story' of the little girl stuck on the toilet whilst the pervert enjoyed his activities - I'm too used to those experiences myself to cry. The adult sitting writing this comment to you feels rage, outrage, resignation, grief...many other things. The little girl, sitting deep inside can only whisper "Hello Sara."
I shall continue to read. You're extremely brave to write - in my case, writing is a healing thing. I hope it is so for you too. Your work is wonderfully edited, there are no typos, spelling or grammatical errors.
Warmest wishes, Kat

msaraann wrote 1052 days ago

Cy, Thank you so much for your nice complements for pointing out the editing errors.

Cy wrote 1054 days ago

Sara,
Fantastic! I actually watchlisted your book because the title is one of my favorite Tori Amos remakes...so it caught my eye. I thought your pitch was great and came in for a read. Now I've got you on my shelf!
I have only read the first 8 chapters, but will return for more. We are currently packing/cleaning for vacation and I have to get up off my butt to work.
I find your imagery vivid, your use of the language tremendous, and feel that your work is almost bookstore-ready. As a customer I would have purchased it and sat down to read it all in one night.
Here are the things I liked the most:
"They love the tree as it screams under their saws"- wow. if that doesn't epitomize many of your character's relationships with their parents, I don't know what does. Wonderful.
"When I get distracted by things above the ground."
and the whole scene with Tiger's kittens. How powerful. I certainly didn't expect your mother to come out with her shotgun, and the combined tenderness of laying them in the sweater and then the child's wrapping it up as the sweater was ruined anyway from cottage cheese- wow.

Piddly editing errors:
ch 7 end- "He's on his way to our house" I believe Becky would tell Mom that it would be Your house.
also when we are with the newborn kittens sara goes from putting them in her room to thinking about slamming her thumb in the door back to the kittens. I I understand the child's view and believe me, my own work is similar to yours and I do the same things, but this just really struck me as out of place. When the kittens go to her room that is such an exciting moment (for a kid) that I can't see her being distracted by the doorway, her entire attention would follow the mewling babies.
Great work
Shelved.
Cy
the Neverlight

msaraann wrote 1059 days ago

Thanks Kennesaw. Your complements really mean a lot to me. I go through bouts of doubt about the writing sometimes. Thank you.

Kennesaw wrote 1059 days ago

Hi Sara,
I finished your book this morning. I had to let it stew for a while. Technically I found a missing word, somewhere near the middle, but couldn't find it later. Other than that, this book is ready for the bookstores. I think you're on the thershold of being discovered. This book isn't whinny and doesn't scream for sympathy as so many like ours do. This is a good tale, told well and is about to bestow success upon you and deservedly so. I'll keep an eye out to see how you fare in the future.

msaraann wrote 1064 days ago

I wrote mine similar to this, but got too many comments about it not flowing. People just don't understand how the memories of children work.



I think this is so true. The first drafts of my memoirs were very choppy and hopped around. I let early incarnations sit for a long time before I would go back and have another go at organizing it. No one but me could follow the story, yet to me it the associations made perfect sense.

Kennesaw wrote 1064 days ago

Sara I had to remove a book from my booksheilf to add yours. My god Sara, how did we grow up to be normal, well maybe we're just kidding ourselves. I've only read the first 8 chapters, but in no world will I be able to not finnish it. I wrote mine simular to this, but got too many comments about it not flowing. People just don't understand how the memories of children work. I think you did a geat job at telling a story that must be told. You have already made such an impression on me, that I will never forget you the rest of my life. Please be Ok, it helps me to know that their are others out there who are Ok after this kind of childhood. I hope to see you in print someday and will support you in any way I can. I had my book published recently and you wouldn't believe what all is happening. Great job and good luck. I chose to make my book non fiction too, I couldn't say it wasn't true just to make the people happy who ruined my life. Kennesaw

msaraann wrote 1123 days ago

chickdaniel: I go back and forth with whether to list my story as fiction or nonfiction. I did change names and didn't name places. The events are true, as I remember them, and I think the story has more meaning if I admit that it is true.

chickdaniel wrote 1123 days ago

This strikes such a bell with me. But I published as fiction to please family. Rewriting under different name as autobiography if I live long enough have been diagnosed with copd. Radiatin treatment the very devil its not the cancer that kills you but the cure.
best of luck

maza wrote 1183 days ago

Hi Sara,

I have taken you off my bookshelf, as I've promised someone else a spot. It won't affect your ranking.

KS wrote 1184 days ago

Hi Sara,
I really, really like this. Having said that I have only read to end of chapter two - sorry I have others on my list but I just checked out the latest authors page, flicked through a couple and didn't feel drawn to them then saw this and got stuck in! I love the style of it, I found myself reading it quite quickly, wanting to read on. Fascinating, colourful characters and you seem to have introduced a number of them effortlessly in quite a short space of time. I will put you on myshelf as I think this needs to be noticed, and I will be back for more soon.
Best of luck!
Kath

maza wrote 1187 days ago

Hi Sara,

I've put you on my bookshelf for a few days, as I'm really enjoying your work.
Maza

msaraann wrote 1189 days ago

Ali: I think you're right about the punctuation of split dialogue. It makes sense. Thanks for mentioning it. Sara

maza wrote 1189 days ago

I've watchlisted Strange Little Girl and am looking forward to it!!!

Ali Cooper wrote 1189 days ago

Hi Sara, I love the flowing lyrical quality of this and as such I believe I am about to be the first to proudly place it on my bookshelf. At the same time I will invite you to take a look at my own book which I think you will like because our use of language is very similar. I won't go into a detailed critique of this now, however, I will just mention, I think there is an aspect of your dialogue punctuation that is wrong. the reason I am noticing this is because I discovered a different aspect of my dialogue punctuation was wrong just before I uploaded the Girl on the Swing. when you have 2 bits of dialogue that are the same sentence I think you need to start the second in lower case. eg 'This is good, 'I said, 'it's really yummy.' or have a full stop after the said and start the second bit of dialogue with a capital. 'This is good,' I said. 'It's really yummy.' please don't take my word for it in case I've got it wrong. do a google search on dialogue punctuation and check. off to make space on my shelf now. Ali.

chickdaniel wrote 1189 days ago

Hi msarann
Thanks for putting me on your bookshelf. Having looked at your books I can see they are the same style as mine Daddy's Little spy isbn9781844264728. I will enjoy reading them and will put full review on later.

YouWriteOn.com the arts council are publishing my second book a mystery romance TO CATCH A THIEF in december hopefully in time for xmas. Price about £3.99
Will be in touch later. pamela

Ali Cooper wrote 1190 days ago

Hi Sara, this is going on my watchlist. Ali.

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