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rank 409
word count 81133
date submitted 20.02.2009
date updated 11.12.2011
genres: Non-fiction, Biography, Harper True...
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Never Again

Terence O'Neill

In wartime Britain three children were taken into care. One tragically died at the hands of their foster father. This is the survivors story.

 

Born into a dysfunctional family of eight children, Terence and two brothers were taken into care in 1940, judged to be in need of care and protection. They were moved from Newport to Herefordshire and for a few short years things went well. In 1944 things changed when the boys were separated, Terence and Dennis were handed over to the Gough’s on a remote Shropshire farm. Six months later Dennis was found dead, killed by starvation and violence. Both boys had suffered punishments and hunger. Terence was the main prosecution witness at the manslaughter trial of the Gough’s. The trial aroused world wide attention, and took preference over the war news in March 1945. This was followed by a public enquiry into the care system chaired by Sir Walter Monckton, K.C. M.G. and led to the Children Act of 1948. The trial caught the interest of Agatha Christie who it is said based “The Mouse trap” the world famous play on this tragedy. Terence still has difficulty with his memories and the fact that similar tragedies are still happening. He tells of his struggle to cope with ordinary life after spending thirteen years being shunted about in the care system.

 
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Adeel wrote 36 days ago

Writing Biography/Memoir is not an easy thing but you have done it so fantastically that makes me to read more of it. A hooking story which deserves to be termed as excellent. Highly starred.

FrancesK wrote 51 days ago

This is an amazing testament to the unquenchable spark for life that children have in them, and your memory for detail is wonderful. Your family now have a published story of an important part of their own history - and you will always be remembered by the people who love you. Thanks for putting this on Authonomy; it will keep me humble. - yours, FRancesK. [I have two books here, but one is very dark and I would not recommend it. You might like the one about a little boy called Micka.]

nenno wrote 96 days ago

fascinating intro. Sobering fascinating reading. Thanks for this. I hope it was cathartic.

Red2u wrote 97 days ago

Came back and read ch3-4 Paper shuffling. No one wants to take blame for the death of a child. Pass the buck. Strange here we are in the 21st century and not much has changed. It is not until there's a death that the authorities take note and then it's too late. As you mention Mrs. Gough's appearance alone... how could this be ignored. Such an interesting yet sad read.
Regards, Red

strachan gordon wrote 198 days ago

A story which is very vividly told , with considerable authorial skill and conveys the plight of displaced children in times gone past extremely well . I always wonder the degree to which are permanently damaged , or in actual fact manage to go onto live happy lives. Watchlisted and starred. Would you be able to look at the first chapter of my novel 'A Buccaneer' which is set amongst Pirates in the 17th century , with best wishes from Strachan Gordon

strachan gordon wrote 198 days ago

A story which is very vividly told , with considerable authorial skill and conveys the plight of displaced children in times gone past extremely well . I always wonder the degree to which are permanently damaged , or in actual fact manage to go onto live happy lives. Watchlisted and starred. Would you be able to look at the first chapter of my novel 'A Buccaneer' which is set amongst Pirates in the 17th century , with best wishes from Strachan Gordon

AudreyB wrote 228 days ago

Very pleased to read that this will be published. Few of today's children know of the privations our elders endured. My father was born in the Calton, in Glasgow, and his childhood was much like your life with your parents. He was often unable to attend school for want of clothes and had little to eat. He was a bit older than you, though, so he fought in WWII.

Best wishes to you with your work!
~AudreyB

Red2u wrote 338 days ago

What a touching story. My only qualm is I found the chapter to be a little long. I've rated it well and do plan on going back to it. Thanks
Red

Red2u wrote 338 days ago

What a touching story. My only qualm is I found the chapter to be a little long. I've rated it well and do plan on going back to it. Thanks
Red

Jay Adiyarath wrote 358 days ago

Hi,

I am glad it's already published. True stories have their own charm although the theme of the story itself may not be charming in the light of Dennis' plight and cruel end. I need to make an effort and put myself in your shoes but still cannot get all the emotion that only you can experience.

Starred and on my WL.

Thanks for posting one of the best stories on this site.

Jay Adiyarath
EXPIRY DATE

mrsdfwt wrote 373 days ago

Dear Terry,
Have you thought that maybe Dennis is in Heaven smiling down at you? That's what i thought after reading the first two chapters of your book. I am so glad someone took notice of it and found it worthy, because stories such as yours have to be told, if for nothing else, for the children.
God bless you today and always,
A Big hug.
Maria
Dark of the Moon

Terry B wrote 392 days ago

Dear Al.
Thank you for taking the trouble to point out the corrections, however I should tell you that my published book is completely different from "Never Again" which is my original rough manuscript and was put on Authonomy only for the historical detail.
My published work "Someone to Love Us" is completely re-written, more from my childhood memories, and has been recommended to Social Work Students as a valuable record of life in care at that time. Many people have commented that in fact similar cases are regularly reported nowadays.
As you hope, the marvellous team at HarperCollins edited my final draft, and to date my book has sold thirty thousand copies.
Thank you so much for your interest.
Best wishes. Terry.

CarolinaAl wrote 392 days ago

Even though the manuscript has been edited and published, I read your prologue and first chapter as posted here.

General comments: A gritty start. An interesting main character. Good details that evoke the region and era. Good descriptions. Not much tension in this chapter. Leisurely pacing, but it seems to be appropriate for this story.

Specific comments on the prologue:
1) This play as been performed in the West End of London for 57 years. 'As' should be 'has.' And spell out numbers 1-99. There are more cases where numbers should be spelled out in chapter one.

Specific comments on the first chapter:
1) The second sentence in the third paragraph of chapter one uses 'over the years' twice. Consider rewriting this sentence.
2) 'The Newport Inspector Richard Jones called at the house at 11 am and saw ... ' '11 am' should be '11 a.m.' or, even better, 'eleven a.m.'
3) "If you don't behave yourselves". Period goes inside the closing quote mark.
4) 'My earliest recollections of Newport are of the Iconic "Transporter Bridge" spanning ... ' 'Iconic' should be lowercase.
5) Hyphenate 'tree lined.'
6) 'I can remember screaming as the man came into the room I was hiding in begged not to be taken.' Insert 'and' after 'in.' Change 'begged' to 'begging.'
7) 'I recall a couple of old ladies residing at this home they lived in the front room.' Period after 'home' and capitalize 'they.'
8) 'Although at this time I was only about or seven years old I was able to use the saw quite well.' Insert 'six' after 'about.'
9) ' ... help cut the wood with him I was only to pleased to help.' The first 'to' should be 'too.'
10) 'One such occassion was on a very cold winters morning.' Winters (plural) should be winter's (possessive).
11) I shouted back "No because you will hit me." Comma after 'back.'
12) 'I expect most of the whacking's were well deserved.' Whacking's (possessive) should be whackings (plural).
13) 'I dropped the and it vanished behind the sacks.' Insert 'mouse' after the first 'the.'
14) ' ... or of the terrible things that was happening in other parts of the country ... ' 'Was' should be 'were.'

I hope the Harper Collins editors caught all these nits.

Would you please look at "Savannah Fire?"

Have a fabulous day.

Al

Pat Black wrote 408 days ago

Recalls the Road to Nab End and other memoirs of growing up in Britain around about the war years. It's easy to see why this was picked up Terry - a promise is a promise though, so for what it's worth here's a review. We're pulled into your harrowing world - there's such a sharp idea of how things were done in these days, with children sudden pulled out of schools and family homes. And your revelation at the very top is a great hook for the casual reader. Pulls no punches, fine work indeed. Well done, and good fortune to you

P

"Stolen Childhood" wrote 424 days ago

This is such a great book Terry, I tell everybody about it. I am so glad it was published. We have many that are fostering in our church and i tell all of them about your book that they must go and buy it.
Laila

Nigel Fields wrote 457 days ago

Terry,
I just ordered your book from Amazon.
Cheers!
JBC

"Stolen Childhood" wrote 489 days ago

Hi again Terry. I am almost finished reading your hard copy book. You are now 15 and moved away. I was so happy when i read about the Torjussen, (Torjussen is a very common name in the east of Norway) i thought indeed they will not just look after him, but they would keep Terry. I was very gutted when also the Torjussen sent you away.
I was wondering Terry, i know you are very busy man, but when you have the time to read my book that you bought at WHSmiths in Newport, I t would be wonderful for me if you could put a comment on it on my book section on this site. It would mean the world to me, to have a comment from you. Though you went through much harder time than me, i do identify with the loneliness, being cold and also the hunger. Even though i only went hungry when my parents where drinking. I do understand if you are to busy to get through my book. But for me its much easier to read from a proper book like yours than the pc.
Take care Terry
Laila

cicuta wrote 501 days ago

Dear Terence, Your book is a blueprint for all modern day children to adhere to. Your elucidatory passion to print such a personal story, can only display how grateful we should be for the sacrifices that were so generously given by a generation, which we are slowly forsaking. You are the product of a past that is steeped in the courage of real heroes who had nothing to give but sheer courage and consideration, and for a country that has failed to honour those... Who not only gave their lives. But left a legacy that we should all be ashamed for remembering for just one day a year. Yesterday was a struggle but tomorrow we'll be free! Your book is a testament of true bravery, a blessing for those that enjoy the freedom that our forefather's, so valiant fought for. And for what? Such a deserving tale to be told time and time again, so we can remember how real war was, and the affect it had on everyone. An emotional parable of painful and past experiences, which highlights the horrors... but not from the battlefield, but from the very place that our fathers fought so passionately to protect. My Uncles have regaled long into the night; That despite the dangers they were exposed to during the Great War. Alas it was the last time that they felt such a sense of true loyalty, which wouldn't last forever. If its a war that will make our nation great again, then allow those who gave their lives to lead us. Lead on Terence, because your story that you have to tell, is timeless. Good luck and best wishes with your book. And please look out for my continued support. Take care, Cicuta, [ Carl, Arcane ].

Nigel Fields wrote 504 days ago

Hi Terry,
Nice beginning. I'm not an editor or wordsmith, but I wonder whether you really need to clarify the Great War with WWl. Just a thought. I think since we know the era generally, simply referring to the Great War would suffice. I'll come back for more of a read when I can. Nice job.
John Campbell

Wye wrote 514 days ago

Hi Terry - once again. I know how good your book is because I brought it when it was published so know youre
whole terrible tale. I am sure you carry Dennis close to your heart and the knowledge that it made the law change is a good thing.
I wish you well
Amelia
A Date in The Diary

readaholic wrote 526 days ago

Right... it's called 'A Place In Life' by Robert C Hartstein.


Mary

readaholic wrote 526 days ago

Terrence, can I recommend... damn! forgotten the guys name.....I'll be back!

readaholic wrote 538 days ago

Your book signings seem to be going really well, Terrence. Did I read you met all the cast of Agatha Christie's

'The Mouse Trap' ?

Ellie S Lee wrote 538 days ago

A tragic story, bravely told which makes compelling but distressing reading. You were a courageous little boy and are a courageous man; you have my total admiration. Mary (readaholic) suggested that I take a look at your book and I see that you are out book signing already - well deserved and very well done.

Regards
Ellie

readaholic wrote 545 days ago

Best of luck, Terrence, for your second book signing, I have just posted a copy of your very moving, brilliantly written book to my friend in Australia.

Best wishes Mary

Kaimaparamban wrote 551 days ago


Your novel is a resemblance of Charles Dickens’ style. Charles Dickens novels are painful for a reader, because of cruelty of fate plays on children. This novel belongs to such a category. You are highlighting miseries of childhood.


Cheers,

Joy J Kaimaparamban
The Wildfire

Gefordson wrote 571 days ago

I think this is a terrific piece in so many ways. It's a brilliant record (if you were my dad I would be proud and grateful to have this book). It's cleanly told - no frills, just accurate, to the point and interesting.
Throughout you drop in extra nuggets - the kid who could imitate the siren, 'collecting' the musical instruments, the army driving test.
My only point would be that to make this into a best seller it needs to be more dramatic.I don't know how you could do that without sacrficing some of the information (Angela's Ashes comes to mind but that's a real weepy and not the kind of record you've produced).
Good luck with this Terence. I'll encourage others to read it and back it.

Gefordson
Nothing you can do.
Nothing you can do.

readaholic wrote 572 days ago

Congratulations on reaching NUMBER ONE in the weekly book chart, Terrence... well deserved!


Mary

Andrew W. wrote 573 days ago

Never Again Comment II

The hopeful thing is you have written it down, you have weighed it, understood it, laid each experience down here for us to see and for you, it is my hope and wish, to leave behind. I have just read of the news that HC will publish your book Terry, a wonderful good news story, I am pleased for you, deservedly not simply in terms of the human story you tell here, but the unsentimental way that you tell it. Bravo.

Andrew W.

Lenore wrote 573 days ago

Congratulations on your publication news.

As I read each chapter I remembered the story about someone feeling badly because they had no shoes, only to meet someone who had no feet. It has been impossible for me to shake this notion as I personalize about the horrors of my abusive childhood and realize with such sadness that not only was I never alone, there were so many children thrown about with no thought for their humanlty. Your pathos, humility and fortitude show in the depth of research, no doubt helpful in therapy as well as creativity, allowing you to put your life in place, remembering what passion and happiness there might have been, and trying to achieve a balance that has allowed you to be a survivor, not only a victim.
Lenore
Surviving the Seaweed

Andrew W. wrote 574 days ago

Never Again

A quick comment for now, haven't much time, a great piece of reportage writing, non-fiction with the feel of fiction, I was engaged immediately, will come back with a deeper comment later. Best wishes

Andrew W
Benevolence

LittleDevil wrote 575 days ago

Backed ages ago, but happy to rate it 6 as I read all that was uploaded. Good luck Terry.
Sue

kategrimes@live.co.uk wrote 575 days ago

I really feel for you Terence. I, too, was in a children's home in Hamshire with several of my brothers and sisters. The home was strictly run but the 'Auntie and 'Uncle' were kind enough, even though they had two children of their own. Later me and my siblings were moved to foster parents, but we were split up. I had only my elder sister with me. I have two brothers and a sister that could pass me on the street and I would not know them, though I have re- gained contact with three bothers and a sister. My foster parents were kind, but I never really felt as if I belonged and I always longed for my own 'real' family. I was taunted at bullied at school for being a 'charity brat'. My heart bleeds for the death of your brother. I admire your courage in writing about your tragic childhood. Congratulations on your publishing deal. Book backed with pleasure and on w/l.

Best wishes. Kate Grimes -LIZZIE

Widget wrote 575 days ago

A tragic story and well written. This should be published. One tip - Begin chapter one with "Times were hard in the 1930s..." and next paragraph. All the best, Katherine - The Quizzical Wizards of Id.

Jilli wrote 575 days ago

Amazing story. You don't realise until you read something like this, how easy childhood was for most of us. This should be published.

SaffinaD wrote 575 days ago

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Leda Joandaughter wrote 580 days ago

Just wanted to say… What impresses me most about your book is that you’ve been able to maintain such a sense of compassion and kindness, despite what you’ve had to endure.

One passage that I found particularly touching was: “No, don’t let them take me away, Daddy! I shouted to Mr. Gough, where he stood watching from across the yard. I’d never called him ‘daddy’ before but all my fears about policemen came rushing back and I was sure they were arresting me and that I’d have to go to remand school.”

This really describes the unwritten creed of childhood abuse survivors. When you have had to live with, and depend on, someone who only hurts you, then how can you believe anyone else would be any better? In fact, maybe the next person along the way will be even worse!

Thank you for writing this book. Your enduring compassion has inspired me with a renewed faith in humanity. I wish I could send you a thousand paper cranes. All the best, LJ, Tao of Love and Software

TMNAGARAJAN wrote 589 days ago

NEVER AGAIN
Congrats.
Backed.
TMN
"NEVER LOSE..."

D K Willis wrote 600 days ago

Good job. Very intriguing and well done. Congratulations on your publishing contract. Well deserved.
Backed with pleasure.

tisseurdecontes wrote 638 days ago

Terence, this is a very moving story. Congratulations on Harper's decision to publish it!

backed

Steven Lloyd
THE AUDACITY OF HOPE AND CHANGE

stoatsnest wrote 642 days ago

What a fascinating story and well written. Backed.

TalulaJane wrote 658 days ago

Wow! This first chapter seriously gave me goosebumps. There is a sad and wonderfully eerie undercurrent here. I loved it! Congrats on the publishining- this was well done!
Carrie
The Darkwood Tales: Demouri's Defeat

Romilla wrote 659 days ago

This is a heart-wrenching read and obviously should be given a place on the shelf; I am really happy HC published it not only for the ripples it racked up for the time (with Agatha writing her story based on this and all) but more for what we can learn from all this unfortunate state of affairs. Life is a beautiful thing and I am happy you got this finally published...

Romilla
Forgetting Sally

Eunice Attwood wrote 662 days ago

An important book, very heart wrenching. Congratualtions on such a fine piece of work. Backed with pleasure.
Eunice - The Temple Dancer.

Dolores A wrote 665 days ago

WWII brought so much suffering to the entire world, but it was these littlest ones who bore the worst pain, orphaned, their homes taken away, never knowing if they would see their parents again. This book shines the unbearable light upon yet another horror these children endured. Yes, war is hell, but what did these innocents ever do to deserve such abuse? Backed.

Andrew Burans wrote 666 days ago

"I am very familiar with "The Mousetrap" and to find out about its' origine is most fascinating. Your narrative voice rings with authenticity, as it should, since yours a true story. Your straight forward writing style, perfect for this genre, makes your story an easy read. I am sure this was very difficult for you to write but I do hope that it was somehow cathartec. Backed.

Andrew Burans
The Reluctant Warrior: The Beginning

lynn clayton wrote 671 days ago

I remember my grandmother singing 'Oh, oh, Antonio' , which is enough to make you laugh at any time but in circumstances like this, it's positively hilarious - nerves, probably, knowing what the consequences will be for the children.
I can't help feeling sorry for both your father and your mother. You can understand why she hadn't the heart to clean the house and when you think of the oily water at Dunkirk ruining his health so that he died a terrible death in 1946 when many Nazis lived full lives it puts things in perspective and makes you pity them. They didn't have much of a life, did they?
I haven't got beyond ch1 yet but I'm so glad this is being published. I assume this is not the edited version because there are a few typos and punctuation errors.
Very best for a terrible and moving tale. lynn

Christa Wojo wrote 673 days ago

A disturbing look into the dark realities of human nature. Your experiences are important to share. They will help other children and therefore will not be in vain.

Warmest Wishes,
Christa

Lara wrote 674 days ago

Terry, I've read all of your book today. I'm sure the well publicised stories of abused children must have activated your memories which had already been kept alive by having to give protracted evidence. Even your account of your treatment in Court shows a lack of humanity on the part of well-educated professionals. If only you and Dennis could have been able to tell Freddy, and his foster parents, perhaps the authorities would have been notified in time. Like Baby P you and Dennis were very badly let down by both local authorities - not making a proper assessment of your foster parenting. It is a huge achievement to have written a book from this dreadful experience and I'm so glad that HC recognised its social significance and published it. You also researched the trial and enquiries, so found out more which would have activated even more painful memories or realisations. I am glad that by then you had a good wife for support. I didn't see in any chapter a reference to how your parents reacted to the dreadful fate which had befallen their boys after they had decided not to care for you themselves, or whether you set up contact with them or your siblings after this became possible.
Your book is published and I hope a copy will sit in every social services office to ensure that every worker on the Child and Family team takes their duty in total seriousness. Their responsibility towards each child is grave.
I do hope your book sells well.
Lara (Rosalind)
Good for Him

Johanna Kern wrote 678 days ago

This is a very important story, and I am so happy that it went out!

I was moved to tears. Terrence, thank yo so much for sharing this, for letting the world know. You are an incredible human being, and a superb writer.

Johanna Kern
Master and the Green-Eyed Hope